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| I've stayed up every night this week studying for finals, but the only thing is...I haven't studied. Staying up late and procrastinating gets you nowhere, so lonely nights and NCAA '06 have become my best friends. Usually I get at least a couple hours or so of sleep, but it's almost 7 in the morning right now and I've been up ALLLLL freakin night. I've actually studied though. I'm stoked about Christmas break coming up. I've got my lil sis (Ashley *8) waiting on me at the house, and my lil dog (Zeke) who is the biggest pimp ever. (Of course he would be my dog) In high school the break was cool because you'd still see all your friends since you were in the same town, but now I'm not going to see a lot of peeps for a while. Hopefully some of my bro's will come down and hit the links w/ me. I hope everyone has a MERRY CHRISTMAS and remembers the reason for the season. Yeah...that was corny... | | |
| I have a new love of my life...it's called 'The OC'. haha...no seriously, i'm going to fail out of school because i stay up all hours of the night watching the show on DVD, then i sleep all day. but it's ok, the show's worth it...if you're not a fan, you should consider becoming one. let me warn you though, once you watch it you'll become hooked...i have another week or so of school, then the semester is over. i'm lookin forward 2 just chillin for an entire month over christmas, prolly workin a lil too... maybe i'll just drop out of school and move to cali...who knows, but that would be awesome. PEACE!!! | | |
| Hope everyone had great Thanksgiving. We went to my mom's cousins house, and his wife had a bunch of her family over there and I didn't know any of them, so it kinda sucked...the food was great though. I figured I'd get to see a lot of my old friends, but actually I didn't get to see them at all. I just chilled out with the family all weekend you know, so it was all good. Aight, sweet...I gotta start workin out now cuz I'm fat since I quit playin baseball... prolly not, but I'm gonna tell everyone that I'm gonna work out. | | |
| Ok, for all you females who want to leave me posts and tell me how good looking I am, I want to thank you but also inform you that I already knew that. haha... (not trying to be a cocky jerk) Today is Monday, barely cuz it's 2:21 in the A.M., but I'm pumped cuz we only have class today and tomorrow. Hope everyone has a very Happy Thanksgiving and gets to spend a lot of time with your families. Don't forget to pig out and eat as much as possible... | | |
| Take me down life's road, show me where to walk. I'm following a lighted path when I'm surrounded by dark. Surrounded by silence, hollow is the ground...I fall to my knees and that's where your heart is found. Crawling now, making my way to a destination unknown...peace overwhelms me when you call me your own. Hold me now as I steadily stand to my feet, don't let me fall again because it's you I'm coming to meet. Let's run together now, this race will soon come to an end. I will chase after you, running, until I look beside me and find my best friend.
I was putting my 'away message' up before going to bed just a little while ago and I started writing a poem as my message. It just kind of took off and evolved into a prayer. If you're looking for meaning this is it... not to be cocky, but it seems easy for me to find girls who would LOVE to be in a relationship with me. Not that it's a bad thing, but I really don't want that right now. I don't feel like that's where I need to be, but I have this other part of me that really wants the feeling. After my last relationship I've hung out with other girls, but it always flops. Like, it never amounts to much and it doesn't really discourage me because it's always because of me. I don't want anything you know? So anyway, I feel like a heartbreaker sometimes and I also feel like I'm letting God down because he's saying, "Josh, don't even begin talking to a girl because you know you're not going to want to get involved." He's telling me that I need to find him and depend on him rather than a girl, and I know that if I do that he'll bring me the perfect one instead of me trying to date 1,000,000 girls and find the one I want. So I'm pretty much saying in this poem that, "Ok...God, here I am. I'm running after you, I want to follow you when I don't know what I'm doing right now, but I want to trust that you're all I need. And when the time comes, and I've been running after you long enough then I'll look beside me and my best friend, the girl God will give me, will be running along side me.
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